10 Rabiulakhir 1413

Today,

the first time I remember the day I was born in this world,

after 21 years I live,

10 Rabiulakhir 1434=21 February 2013,

today is also my friends birthday,

linda and yus,

but not in Hijrah.

Today,

I just feel so calm,

like always,

no one remember,

and I also don't in the past,

start today,

I will remember my own,

and my futures too.

Today,

I'm try my best to give,

even though I can't meet them anymore,

Ya Allah,

forgive them,

less their punishment in that small and dark place,

they once,

my only precious,

that I don't even have a chance,

to thank for being my precious,

Today,

I will be better,

I will have a good heart,

I will lower my gaze,

I will listen YOU,

I will try.

sincerely,

A'ish Thought.

thought when friends getting married.

I know when the day comes, 

I'm the first one shed tears seeing my father let me go to my other half. 

I always wonder, 

is my other half will call me when I'm not coming back before Maghrib?

is he will buy me all the foods that I want to eat? 

is he will be over protective? is he will call me princess? 

is he will accept all my bad behaviors  is he will let me be his accountant? 

Then I will look at my mother. 

Dear mom, 

your daughter will be a wife. 

can I wake up 6 at the morning? 

can I iron my other half clothes for years? 

can I cook a nice foods for him? 

can I be Solehah wife? 

can I control my bad temper? 

can I control my jealousy? .

p/s: 3.00am on 28 December 2012

RAMADHAN 1433H (21 JULAI-18 OGOS 2012)

Alhamdulillah.

in this beautiful month

I achieved some of my target

its between me and Allah 'azza wa jalla.

InsyaAllah.

if I meet the next Ramadhan

I will be a better caliph of Allah.

Subhanallah.

this Ramadhan is so beautiful

this is first time I ever feel that Ramadhan leave me early.

1432H

-10

1433H

- :), 2nd and 3rd.

some people are changing around me

what I see

being better self.

Subhanallah

once they love Allah, human being great

I'm super dumbfounded

at 12.00am on 27.8.2012

I'm trying to be better.

may Allah give me what I need.

If I want to help others,

I'm must be better first.

:)

trying to control emotion

especially madness.

I really want to be a daughter that my parents can lean on me in the world and hereafter.

:)

Ya Allah, KAU jadikan aku yang terbaik sebelum KAU kurniakan aku jodoh yang soleh dan mencintaku kerana cintanya padaMU. :)

I believe in HIM

HE heard my dua.

HE heard me when I cry

HE heard me when I'm saying it with my heart

Allah, I will wait when the time is come. 

I'm trying to protect my heart for my world and hereafter 'other half'.

p/s: I will update when the time is come. :) 

.h.u.s.b.a.n.d.

"orang laki ni kalau dia bersungguh nak kat kita, dia buat mak ayah kita jatuh cinta ngan peribadi dia dulu. baru dia buat kita jatuh cinta. :)"

p/s: dear future husband, make my parents fall for you then we can marry. HAHAHA

.t.e.k.n.i.k.

"serius rindu koloh teknik, budok2 kelas, budok2 ostel. makan same, pakat tunggu kawan masa balik sebab nok makan same. g round koloh teknik. kene maroh d ustzah asmara sebab x ingat suroh hafazan sapa kene skoloh cina. wak bising. makan mee sup moknor, bilis lebih. jadi pengawas biar azizatun xknal pah sudoh pon. g bilik guru sebab dalam kelas panah ketik. koir sambil nganga mulut luah. kaca org mase prep. ponteng riadah. turun lambat pagi2 mogenye bos ostel sain2 lake. dengor cikgu zahar beleber sep ni xwak latihan LK. dengor cikgu madi kate "mung jage molek!". hok paling x lupa dapat kenal sain2 kawan2 awok2 yang OHHHSEMMM!"

p/s:tobat ar, koloh teknik epot ohhsem! sekali, 2 kali, 3 kali, berkali-kali. :) rindu dia actually. long time no see. 

.m.o.t.h.e.r.

"I can't be as strong as you, mother. I cry when I lost something that was temporary mine. :)"


p/s: Imissmymotheralot! :(

.h.e.a.r.t.

"hoping my heart one day will solid to like the one person only"

p/s: what is love actually? you and me. who are 'you'? Allah know better. :)

.a.b.c.

"he resemble my father"

p/s:onemaytwothousandtwelve :)

.w.o.r.d.l.e.s.s. .e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y.

21 Februari 2012

that day was an awesome day,

my friends and I celebrate Linda's birthday,

while eating, gossiping, chatting,

Linda ask us to look at the sky,

wonder what we got to see?

a meteor..

not a real pic, 

i'm a girl who not believe those thing will appear infront of our eyes,

but it was real,

I always thought that meteor only appear in drama,

it was ridiculous if we can see with our own eyes,

but I saw it with my own eyes when i was 20,

maybe people not believe it,

me too,

I'm not believe that meteor appear that night.

syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah give me and my friends a chance to see His creation.

p/s: a meteor is not just a fairytale in drama, but it really exist. 

(linda, teh, asma', nik, mis, aida, ellie and me). may Allah bless linda's life, bless her with a nur. :)

.f.o.r. .m.y. .b.e.d.m.a.t.e.

dear ....

sorry for not answering your question yesterday

my opinion is

boy tu x putus berusaha sebab dia laki

ego tinggi

bila dia set kepala dia, dia nak gegurl tu

dia akan dapatkan

ni bukan berasaskan drama2 melayu, cerita korea

tapi hakikat

mungkin u xpernah jumpa

dan sebab lain mungkin si gegurl tu layan jugak dia

kita mana tau dalam kain orang

luar dia cover

tapi padahal dia bagi harapan kat boy tu

sebab gegurl tu berahsia kan

dan walau dia tak innocent sangat tapi nampak innocent

kekeke

so u xyah nak fikir bila u akan rasa macam boy tu rasa

x pernah nak putus asa

sebab jodoh kita x semestinya ngan org yang dekat dgn u je

jodoh u mungkin ngan org u kenal 1 hari

then get married

life is unpredictable like man heart

sometime boy bukan nak sangat kat gegurl

tapi dia just nak try je

kalau dapat rezeki

xdapat try yg lain

i nak nasihat u

"who ever come in ur life

then telling you that you are the person he love most, he may lie"

u boleh tgok apa yg kawan kita lalui

boy tu bila nampak ade peluang cakap

"aku sayang kau dari dulu"

padahal sekarang duk couple ngan orang lain

kita tak boleh salah kan boy tu

maybe pemikiran dia tak matang

dan tak tahu apa itu 'love'

sorry to say

even i don't know what love is

sometime i cannot differentiate(calculus) love and like

that why i am like this nowadays

kekeke

i just wanna ask you

have you ever having a friends(boy) that sincerely friends with you without trying to seduce you?

nak cari boy yang ikhlas kawan ngan kita tanpa try kita punya feeling susah u

hehehe

apa apapun i ade abang(for sure boy la) yang kawin ngan dia punya first love

nak habaq ja ni

tapi dengan dunia hari ini nak cari lelaki yang first hand memang susah

kalau ade rezeki dapat yang last hands

tu pun kalau ade rezeki

dan abang i sorang lagi cakap

xpe la dia free hair

asal hati dia baik

nanti aku ubah dia

bukan semua bertudung baik, tapi yang baik sudah semestinya bertudung

apa akan jadi masa depan kita tak tahu

tapi kita boleh ubah kan..

apa-apa pun

u doa la mintak ngan Allah dalam setiap sujud terakhir

semoga Allah kurniakan u suami yang soleh

boleh bimbing u ke jalan yang diredhaiNya

kadang2 mesti org ckap

buat apa nak doa pasal jodoh cepat

u dah nak kawin ke?

xsabar sangat ke?

tu adalah konsep yang salah

takkan esok nak kawin hari ni baru nak solat

mohon dapat suami soleh

Allah akan dengar bila kita hari2 x putus mintak ngan dia

InsyaAllah u akan dapat suami soleh

p/s:sorry for my wrongdoings, no one can compare you..InsyaAllah one day there is a man who sincerely love you telling the words that i write just now..:) xoxo HAHAHA